Sorry guys..
I haven't update this blog much..
Yea but I have visit the hospital two times this week and it's so depressing.
My last visit was Wednesday because I had this incredible stomach ache that wouldn't stop. I was home alone watching series and this stomach ache just hit my stomach on 1 sec and I was in tears and I screamed because it was so painful.
I called my grandmother and she came down to our apartment to look after me but it didn't help because I couldn't stop crying because it was so painful.
Later my mom came home from work and we decided to go to SÖS or ''the hospital''. Notice, I hate hospitals.
I begged my mother and my granny to go there because I couldn't deal with the pain.
When we arrived there I got a stretcher to lay on. But that didn't stop the pain.
My stretcher was right in the hall, it was so much noise and a bunch people who laid on their stretchers and also people who sat down. I got my place right in front of the paying desk and it was incredible noisy there.
Later a nurse came to me and took a blood sample and later the gave me morphine through a needle in my arm. I'm really scared of needles and this was so suffering. I thought that I was about to die..
The noise was inside my head, all the people who screamed after help, my pain wouldn't go away and I felt dizzy like I was about to pass out. It was like a horrible nightmare. I cried and went to the toilet together with my mother. There I said that I was about to die and I'll die because I can't to this. This was to much to handle, I really thought that I was about to die.
Later when I had cold down a bit I went to my stretcher and laid down with head phones in my ears HOWEVER MY PHONE HAD 3% BATTERY LIFE LEFT. When I listened to music I fell asleep 30 minutes and when I woke up my pain was gone, I felt like I normally do. I was happy and drugged.
Despite the fact that my pain went away we was on the hospital for 7 hours. Sadly I coudln't attend the Japan day in school the day after which made me pretty depressed but I thought over it and it's gonna be a Japan day next year to and I'll surely attend that one.
But like I said I was kind of sad and depressed and I felt really lonely.
My second visit at the hospital was today.. I went to the children hospital and there I got better help than before. The doctor touched my stomach and later I got oil in my ass? Dafuq... It sounds so wrong. But it was medecine or something and after that they took a blood sample however they don't really know what kind of sickness I got.
Sorry to say this but I really hate Swedens hospital and the workers there, atleast they could have more doctors than only one. The nurses are cool and I like them but we need more doctors and doctors who can their stuff not only a doctor who only can one thing.
I'm really sad that I can't be cured right now, but I won't lose my hope because I want to go back to school and learn myself stuff and hang around with my friends. I miss them so much and I have felt pretty lonely these days.
But when I laid on the hospital today Aleksandra was entertaining me, she is so cute and I love her <3
Now I'm going to sleep and I hope I don't have to run to the toilet to night because I want to sleeep!!!
Yea, but good night buddies!